While I was watering the garden tonight, my 4 year old happily watered everything nearby, even the weeds. I kept my eyes on the sky, to try and catch the moment when the clouds would declare the glory of God. As faint traces of pink and orange began to spring up, I snapped a few quick photos.
We picked flowers and danced, enjoying the beautiful evening. With the watering complete, I took the last photos and decided I must have captured everything from tonight’s sunset. Time to put the kids to bed and move on with my day. We picked up, and right before we called it quits, I glanced up. The sky was amazing, so bright and vivid. I told Alyndria to look up, and she exclaimed “it’s GLORIOUS!!!!”
We ran to the fence, and I lifted her up on the planter beds to get a better view. We were both overcome by just how stunning the clouds were. Faint wisps that were previously invisible now lit up in shades of orange. Fluffy white clouds were now beautiful hues of pink, amber, purple and magenta, glowing with the last embers of today’s light.
Had we actually gone in and said good enough, we would have missed this spectacular show. Just mere minutes later, all the color faded. We went inside, hand in hand, talking about how amazing the sunset was tonight.
I suddenly realized that saying it’s time for something to happen, doesn’t mean it will solely because I want it to. I can’t rush things, and make them happen when it’s not their time. There was no way I was going to make the sunset brighter and more glorious, just because I wanted it that way. I had to wait for the proper timing, and not when it was convenient for me.
There are so many things going on in my life right now, so many new areas of possibilities. I want them to happen RIGHT NOW! Sure, I’m a working mom of 3, helping my wonderful husband fix up and maintain our home. But there are so many ways I want to glorify Him. My heart yearns to write books, paint, and make pottery – all centered and focused on Jesus Christ. I want that reality more than I can explain.
But I am learning that everything is a process. You can’t have a sunset in the middle of the day just because it’s more favorable for you. You have to use the time you have the best you can, and leave the overall timing to God when things will actually occur.
So I just keep dreaming, planning and writing. Baby steps bring me closer to what my heart cries out for – expressing my overwhelming love and gratitude for what God is doing in and through my life. I will be patient, obedient and do my part to make these dreams a reality. Not when I say so, when it is convenient for me, but all in His timing.