Since my job ended last month, God is teaching me how to stop striving and doing so much. My life used to be filled to overflowing, and I was in a constant state of trying to juggle dozens of things all at once. My identity was made up of the roles that I identified with and what I did.
When I ask God what He wants me to do now, He says to just be His daughter. Do you know how hard it is to go from trying to do everything to just be something? I am learning my identity in Christ, and who He says I am. I have been reading His promises in the Bible and reminding myself of His truth.
Over these past few weeks, I have grown so close to the Lord, and it has been incredible. My relationship with the Holy Spirit has developed and deepened, and I have such peace and trust in my Lord. He has been gently and lovingly tearing down the lies I had believed for far too long, breaking off agreements I had unknowingly set up years ago, and He’s showing me unhealthy habits I need to minimize.
I have discovered the beauty that surrounds us, which we never notice in our rush to get something else done. I saw the stunning shadows from a spiral staircase going around a water tower and the pattern caught my breath. Frail yellow poppies danced in the wind as my airplane flew by. God is an amazing artist and my best friend who is remaking me and calling me back to create again. I have a burning desire to write and paint and spend as much of my day in His presence that I can.
I do not know what this new life is going to look like, or what I will be doing, but I am excited. Every passing day brings adventures with Jesus, and I can’t wait to see what happens tomorrow. I have a new hope, and am here to do whatever He wills, because I love Him with all my heart. God, teach me how to be Your daughter and to truly know that it is more than enough.